Nocturnal Reflection

Welcome to My Truest Thoughts My Truest Feelings

  • Falls on me

    October 19, 2020 by

    It all falls on me Just how you said it wouldnt be Even tho its not entirely It still all falls on me Even though you may catch a thing or two At the end all of that residue Falls to my emotions and my mental It all falls on me –@nocturnalxo

  • Unconditional Love

    October 4, 2020 by

    From your strongest to your weakest Ive seen you when you hit your peak and I dont love you any less For the time you were down Thats why i know now That i know love From its smiles to its frowns my love for you never broke in two And even on the days… Read more

  • Distractions

    October 2, 2020 by

    Distractions Truth is i don’t feel well Sleeping in your bed at night gives me chills Where are you? Will you ever wake up? I wish i could hug you and tell you to not let up When we spoke on the phone you opened your eyes As if my voice brought you back Much… Read more

  • An Ode To My Great Aunt

    September 29, 2020 by

    Its all hitting me at once If i knew that was the last time i was going to see you I would have hugged you harder and reassured my love had only gotten stronger Even when the disease in your brain took my person away I never forgot that shred of you that still remained,… Read more

  • Loveeeeee Poem

    September 29, 2020 by

    It felt good Just to be free To light trees And inhale under the covers until the clock hit 3 A sweet escape How deep the ties were made Traveling a total of 6 hours to much dismay But i dont care about what the people say When im around you all my fears tend… Read more

  • Animosity

    September 29, 2020 by

    The animosity Is slowly haunting me Went from super close to you barely talking to me Was it jealousy? Or even envy? That built a wedge between you and me? I dont pretend to be The picture perfect heavenly Girl next door like you may be But the animosity Feels like its haunting me Was… Read more

  • 20s Bluez

    September 7, 2020 by

    Floating away drifting in space Where is my place in this world Thrown into this brand new place Fast paced and it dont wait for nobody Left or right? Yes or no? Stop or go? It all seems real easy when you watch it on them shows Till you look in the mirror Ask yourself… Read more

  • Portal

    August 24, 2020 by

    The sky is like a portal Figures of Swans that glide through the sky because they are immortal Clouds that show you messages through symbols Another world indeed An astral dream to me Different colors shine for the sun set As the sun rests a deep blue sky takes over Different shades of blue happen… Read more

  • Insomnia

    August 12, 2020 by

    I aint rest I aint sleep Im functioning off 2 hours of sleep Here i am Now im not Im traveling through different realms in my mind The bags under my eyes look real nice to me The night sky makes me feel so free Sleeping during the day Awake during the night Nocturnal is… Read more

  • Shooting Stars Prologue

    July 28, 2020 by

    The stars sure did look bright that night. I don’t think I ever really came to the roof and just started stargazing until that night. I saw Vanessa put the bottle down in between us and lay her head on her purple pillow. “What a view.” She muttered with a smile on her face. I… Read more

  • Cry All The Time

    July 20, 2020 by

    She would cry Cry cry All the time Because you left her with 2 kids And left me with just my mind I would see the tears fall from her eyes all the time Because she had a fatherless son and daughter to raise Because you couldnt find the time so she raged She would… Read more

  • Vulnerable

    July 20, 2020 by

    I stay vulnerable And its noticeable I Wear my heart on my sleeve Have my laundry in the streets Dirty it seems Give it up for peace Since it seems to decrease The never ending shame that used to eat me So here i am Transparent as ever and I wouldnt want it any other… Read more

  • Sometimes

    July 20, 2020 by

    Sometimes Sometimes i wish you never put hands on me Sometimes i wish we were really meant to be Sometimes i wish things went another way Instead of the way it led us to today Sometimes i dont care and im fine Other times the PTSD blows my mind Sometimes im good and i feel… Read more

  • From Time

    July 20, 2020 by

    I dont know why it weighs on me heavy Time has passed but i still feel so sweaty When i think about you When i think about us I dont know about you But i wish there was still an “us” Deep down Reconciliation passes through my mind like a halt at a bus stop… Read more

  • Incognito

    July 9, 2020 by

    ‪What looked so sweet at first glace ‬‪Tasted so sour after time passed ‬‪I guess thats why you shouldnt judge a book by its cover Deceived by the green appearance of her ‬‪The tears that formed left me warned ‬‪To not take another bite ‬‪Expecting something sweet ‬‪But something bitter ended up as the surprise.… Read more

  • Birds

    June 20, 2020 by

    Birds start chirping A tune that fits the flow of the earth turning A tune so angelic the angels are yearning To hear it every time they’re around The birds are chirping A tune that fits a nice summer breeze A tune that fits the picture of ease To hear it whenever we’re around trees… Read more

  • Pink Cloudz

    June 20, 2020 by

    Poetic rhymes to pass the time Passion flows as the record beholds Symphonies that speak to me My inspiration singing through The muse to it all is you Pink clouds Share a picture about Love The one we all desire The one that takes us higher The image of you painted in the sky A… Read more

  • Sky

    June 20, 2020 by

    Sky is hypnotic The dreams felt erotic Took a sip of that tonic Now im floating in the ocean Sky is so blue Still i look back and all i think about is you Your figure in the clouds This obsession is wearing me out Abstract dreams Believe in the realm of fantasies The sky… Read more

  • Tupac Amaru Shakur

    June 16, 2020 by

    Since a child i’ve looked up to you your essence of charisma is what made me fall in love too Although taboo and a little out of the ordinary Your songs would help guide me, it is still something very extraordinary Your words would show me to much wisdom at such a young age You… Read more

  • Shallow

    June 11, 2020 by

    When the pool of water doesn’t reach certain depths We aren’t able to get deep it works like that in life Shallow streams that play make believe Illusions of depth makes you drown in dreams Wave after wave Graves that we’ve paved Conclaves that just sway In the deepest part of the ocean Where my… Read more

  • Stagnant

    June 11, 2020 by

    When the world stops And our lives are put to a halt We look around in hopes that quality time tops The excessive distraught our life has taken in Unemployment line gets longer And the debts get stronger Until we find a way to maintain Some cope with drugs Some sustain with love Until reality… Read more

  • Psychosis

    June 11, 2020 by

    Head pounding Heart racing It feels like This isnt real. Shadows dancing Voices making me feel like i’ve made a deal Like the air has been laced And my hand is to my heart im feeling the bass Its Beating like drums that wont stop Dissociation has taken over again and this time it brought… Read more

  • Like a Cat

    May 23, 2020 by

    Nocturnal like a cat Im fertile with my raps A turtle is how i move Slow and steady with the groove Still i know that i cant take too long Life waits for nobody Same old song But opportunity knocks on my door I just have to stack up at the book store Study study… Read more

  • Heritage

    May 18, 2020 by

    My ancestors were slaves Not all but I bet you I can name their names In a dream For that is when they speak to me First stop Santo Domingo Christopher Columbus you are so evil 500 year curse is lifted yet the after-effects still feel lethal Why is that? Why do I feel their… Read more

  • Dear God

    May 17, 2020 by

    Dear God, I love you more than anything Without you everything would be meaningless I know you hearing and you seeing this I Apologize on behalf of humanity They dont see all you do behind the scenes But i do And i feel you And i know you And i love you. So i thank… Read more

  • To Whom It May Concern

    May 15, 2020 by

    TRIGGER WARNING: This story contains details of a rape.   When I was a freshman in college I was sexually assaulted. I had just gotten to this small university where I was dorming and was met with a roommate who really disliked me from the jump. Ideally, I wanted to become best friends with my… Read more

  • I

    May 13, 2020 by

    I love myself enough To know when enough is enough I love myself so much That i cant deal with the same old tired stuff I love myself enough to know That i am worth much more than heartbreak and scorn I love myself enough to leave situations that always end up leaving me torn… Read more

  • Runnin

    May 4, 2020 by

    Gotta catch my breath Dont make the wrong step The path to your destiny awaits But first you gotta stop runnin, take a break. When you look in the mirror Do you like what you see or would you rather pull a trigger? Look into your eyes Are you really as bad as you depict… Read more

  • Daydream

    April 24, 2020 by

    Daydream it seems to me im lost in this life scheme Ive taken it to the extreme In the everyday mundane Day dream life never ends up how it may seem like how it ends in the movies Its all part of the game Trial after trial but my daydream consists of fairytales and bridals… Read more

  • ScapeGOAT

    April 6, 2020 by

    Don’t worry about me Worry about you I been sleeping good but its the guilt that left me shook As if i influenced everyone around me I doubt it so don’t you dare doubt me As if I’m the evil… As if I’m the person who been primeval..? As if i havent been on a… Read more

  • Done Dirty

    April 6, 2020 by

    The wind in the air is left sturdy Breezing through lies that they buried Only those eyes know the truth Dont ever let them lie to you Water blood dirt fire Doesnt matter they all get higher From watching you rise and fall The best thing you can do is call The last bit of… Read more

  • Used To Be

    April 6, 2020 by

    This used to be my time Nocturnal rhymes Used to be the vibe Used to be until i found out it was killin me Used to be until i found out what was encrypted in me Used to be Till i saw the magic formed against me Used to be But now i know that… Read more

  • Loyalty

    April 5, 2020 by

    I’m loyal to the soil Even when it hurts But now I know I’m gonna put myself first Sometimes people do Come and go But some you won’t forget so it’s hard to let go With that being said The disconnect happens when the loyalty is not to ourselves So we end up putting our… Read more

  • Heal The World

    April 2, 2020 by

    It wasn’t our fault And that’s what we don’t get I did fall and I fell with many regrets But now I’m up because I’m finally searching Searching for my soul It often felt like i was a burden The pain is masked so well i forget The pain i forget is hidden and it… Read more

  • Scream Hope

    March 31, 2020 by

    I’m not going to scream I’m not going to cry I’m going to continue to take things one step at a time I’m not going to freak out Anxiety is on its way out And all I can really say is I do wanna scream and shout! But out of happiness! After all these years… Read more

  • Mirror

    March 31, 2020 by

    Sometimes the reflection can be painful Sometimes we take things on because we are made to Sometimes peace of mind is all we need To know that things will be fine in the in between Sometimes we react off instinct Sometimes our dreams do die because we arent listening Sometimes it hurts to look But… Read more

  • Different Cell

    March 31, 2020 by

    Same trials, different cell Same struggle, different hell Same heart, different wells Karma comes and gets it still Protect the hearts who beat through the stain And smile through the pain Living life insane but its normal in the rain – @nocturnalxo

  • The Unknown

    March 25, 2020 by

    Maybe I know too much Maybe I know too little But what I really know is that this time was meant to grow like I’m on a riddle Not working for the people who represent hate Because I just really can not relate Keep looking I’ll send it right back to you Do you really… Read more

  • Untitled

    March 23, 2020 by

    Your eyes they never lie do they I’ve seen you crying I’ve been hearing it loud for 2 days I wanna understand I want to see who’s behind that mask I wanna see but maybe it is meant to be free For open interpretation We grasping for hope because this life looks so fake and… Read more

  • Bleeding Heart

    March 21, 2020 by

    Bleeding Heart My heart bleeds for the love that I know is unrequited It’s crazy to feel but fuck it I am ignited To let go of what I cannot control is my mission Because if I don’t I start to lose my vision To remember is something I hope never leaves I want to… Read more

  • Hope

    March 21, 2020 by

    Never lose hope It may seem cloudy right now but dont grab that rope For life has beauties that we need to experience It’s not filled with pain Just many experience Can be heavy but still we must maintain For there is always a rainbow after that rain – @nocturnalxo

  • Insomnia

    March 18, 2020 by

    They say, there’s no rest for the Wicked But is it Wickedness or Weakness ? Word to K.Dot I’m tryna embody his uniqueness With a splash of me in between A Conscious Devoted Poetic Queen. Who struggles just like you and me I don’t got the answers Im not Sway Calloway or anyone in between… Read more

  • Sun & Moon

    March 9, 2020 by

    The sun is setting So the moon can rise Both on opposite sides yet they still do shine In different ways for the sun will blind you with its rays While the moon simply illuminates Oh what a love story Still told till this day Dimming your light so others can shine bright So every… Read more

  • Happy Sunday

    March 2, 2020 by

    Sunshine is strictly my mission To live every day with only one condition To thank God for the fact that I woke up while other bodies weren’t in that position To smile every day and train my mind to be grateful that I have risen I say that because i don’t want to live in… Read more

  • Poetry Is For

    January 31, 2020 by

    Poetry is for the unexpressed souls Poetry is for the creatives that need the juice to flow Poetry is for the hearts that need healing Poetry is for the minds to decipher the meaning Poetry is for love and heart Mind and street smarts Poetry is for the soul like fertilizer for the creative planting… Read more

  • Let Me Be Your Favorite Nightmare

    January 31, 2020 by

    Love It came so easily But was it love or just lust that I accepted Which was the frequency? Never mind that because although the love you gave did end up pleasing me Still Something was missing, my usual carefree spirit was wheezing for air As if you sucked it all out of me and… Read more

  • Speed Law

    January 30, 2020 by

    J wants to die she’s working on dying before her time What can you do She takes those pills it’s fucking with more than just her mind What can you say Has so much potential but wastes it on cheap thrills Doesn’t see too far ahead she’s stuck on the mundane wheel When everyone sees… Read more

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