Portal

The sky is like a portal

Figures of Swans that glide through the sky because they are immortal

Clouds that show you messages through symbols

Another world indeed

An astral dream to me

Different colors shine for the sun set

As the sun rests a deep blue sky takes over

Different shades of blue happen to spillover

Messages from the angels

Telling us that once we die thats when we live

Giving us hope for the day we crossover and reconnect with our past kids

When we reach the crossroads thats when we’ll meet again

When that deep blue sky turns to a dark shade of colors we cannot comprehend

I still know that you are present and will be there for me when i too must ascend

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Insomnia

I aint rest

I aint sleep

Im functioning off 2 hours of sleep

Here i am

Now im not

Im traveling through different realms in my mind

The bags under my eyes look real nice to me

The night sky makes me feel so free

Sleeping during the day

Awake during the night

Nocturnal is what i am, i cannot deny

Tried to fight it

Tried to fix it

But here we are, there is no listening

Goodness gracious, here we are again

Its just like i cant get out my head

Darkness comes and takes me whole at night

Oh my

Oh my

Insomnias got my mind

All night

All night

Insomnia

Has got a hold of my mind

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Shooting Stars Prologue

The stars sure did look bright that night. I don’t think I ever really came to the roof and just started stargazing until that night. I saw Vanessa put the bottle down in between us and lay her head on her purple pillow.

“What a view.” She muttered with a smile on her face. I moved my head to try and get real cozy.

“What if we see a shooting star?” I asked her with a grin.

“How cool would that be? I’d wish for money.” My primadonna best friend proclaims proudly. I chuckle and hesitate before sharing what I would wish for.

“Well, what about you?” Vanessa turns to me with one of her eyebrows raised

“Well.” I mockingly repeated. After I saw her gaze fixated on me I knew that she really wanted to know.

“Er, If I tell you it may not come true!” I crossed my arms and pretend like I’m really not going to tell her, knowing me, it was bound to come out.

“Oh come on, it will come true! don’t be like that.” Her puppy eyes came out as I rolled my eyes.

“I’d wish for love.” I say quietly, Vanessa does a double-take and this time she was the one rolling her eyes.

“You’re so cheesy Lei, That was real corny.” Vanessa took out the Doritos and begins munching.

“While that is true, it doesn’t matter anyway because as you can see” I pointed to the sky     “No shooting stars.”

As if a higher power was listening, seconds later the same location in the sky that I pointed to and we were both looking at was engulfed in shooting stars. Not just one but dozens of them. We turn to each other with our eyes widened, both in disbelief.

“Woah, Are we tripping?” Vanessa exclaims shock heard all over her voice.

“Not this time.” I manage to say as fast as the shooting stars came they went

“Did you even wish for anything?” I turn to her and see her eyes still glued to the night sky.

“Girl, we already made our wishes! That was crazy though.” She finally turns to look at me with a Goofy grin “I’m going to be rich!” She gets up and starts dancing. I can’t help but laugh.

“You really think so?” I ask her unconvinced “I mean I know shooting stars symbolize wishing and having your wishes come true but, you really think it will?” Vanessa stops dancing and looks me dead in my eye.

“Lei, you have to believe.”

That night was one of the most special nights of my life. It changed the trajectory of my life and of Vanessa’s life. There was magic in the air and we were blessed enough to gain from it. After we saw the shooting stars I poured my glass and her glass of wine and we toasted to the stars and the wishes. Not really knowing what would come next. We both had 10 AM classes the next morning at different universities so we called it a night early. The next day is when the magic would really come to life.

 

 

TO BE CONTINUED…

(Just so you all know i do indent my paragraphs but the way my site is set it… lol it doesn’t show it! So bare with me! Thank you) –@nocturnalxo

Cry All The Time

She would cry

Cry cry

All the time

Because you left her with 2 kids

And left me with just my mind

I would see the tears fall from her eyes all the time

Because she had a fatherless son and daughter to raise

Because you couldnt find the time so she raged

She would cry

cry cry

All the time

Because you broke her heart in two and she would see the pain transmute into her daughter too

She would cry

Cry cry

All the time

Because everything she asked from you

You gave to another woman who never had to grow your seeds

And that alone just made her heart bleed

I would cry

Cry cry all the time

Because i grew up feeling abandoned by the figure who was never supposed to leave me stranded, supposed to never leave my side

So i would cry

Cry cry all the time

Because i got a taste of what it would have been like to have you around

And you snatched that away

And you let me down

I would cry

Cry cry all the time

Because i had low self esteem because when you left her it felt like you left me

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Vulnerable

I stay vulnerable

And its noticeable

I Wear my heart on my sleeve

Have my laundry in the streets

Dirty it seems

Give it up for peace

Since it seems to decrease

The never ending shame that used to eat me

So here i am

Transparent as ever and

I wouldnt want it any other way

Because this is my spirit

It came to lift weights

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Sometimes

Sometimes

Sometimes i wish you never put hands on me

Sometimes i wish we were really meant to be

Sometimes i wish things went another way

Instead of the way it led us to today

Sometimes i dont care and im fine

Other times the PTSD blows my mind

Sometimes im good and i feel free

Other times i feel locked in the chamber of my reality

Sometimes i hate you and i know thats how its supposed to be

But the hate eats me alive its a never ending cycle of grief

Sometimes i want to betray myself and go back

Until i snap out of the desperation that i have packed

Most times i dont think about you

Most times i know that you were just another fool

Most times i know that its self harm to think about a time when you and me were warm

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From Time

I dont know why it weighs on me heavy

Time has passed but i still feel so sweaty

When i think about you

When i think about us

I dont know about you

But i wish there was still an “us”

Deep down

Reconciliation passes through my mind like a halt at a bus stop

i know that our chapter is locked and sealed

Thrown In the past and covered with dirt and grass

But how come when i think of you my heart starts to peel

The core starts to shine

Are you sure you dont think of me from time to time?

If not then fine

I get it i cant be the one with every guy

But you

You left your mark

As the years past i dont think ill ever forget the spark

I want to let this go badly

But my heart says to look back ever so fondly

Its not healthy

So im ending this toxic fantasy

And with doing that

Hopefully i step back into reality

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Incognito

‪What looked so sweet at first glace ‬
‪Tasted so sour after time passed ‬
‪I guess thats why you shouldnt judge a book by its cover Deceived by the green appearance of her ‬
‪The tears that formed left me warned ‬
‪To not take another bite ‬
‪Expecting something sweet ‬
‪But something bitter ended up as the surprise. ‬-nocturnalxo

Birds

Birds start chirping

A tune that fits the flow of the earth turning

A tune so angelic the angels are yearning

To hear it every time they’re around

The birds are chirping

A tune that fits a nice summer breeze

A tune that fits the picture of ease

To hear it whenever we’re around trees

The birds are singing

A song made by divine healing

A song that only can be given

To creatures who use their wings and fly

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Pink Cloudz

Poetic rhymes to pass the time

Passion flows as the record beholds

Symphonies that speak to me

My inspiration singing through

The muse to it all is you

Pink clouds

Share a picture about

Love

The one we all desire

The one that takes us higher

The image of you painted in the sky

A kind of image only God can create this fine

And still i stare

Still i continue to breathe the blessed air

Of hope and prosperity

Its all beautiful

Its all what it’s meant to be

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