Message to my followers!

Hi! Its me nocturnalxo and im going to let you guys know that this website isnt staying up forever. I plan to close it around December after a year is up. I plan on writing a book that includes poetry and fiction one day hopefully soon! So to keep up with my writings i think you guys should follow me on instagram @nocturnalxo And if you want to contact me my personal email is kcabral91@gmail.com

Thanks for tuning in , its been fun but i have too much talent to keep it on a blog forever! Hope you guys understand ❤

@nocturnalxo

Insomnia

I aint rest

I aint sleep

Im functioning off 2 hours of sleep

Here i am

Now im not

Im traveling through different realms in my mind

The bags under my eyes look real nice to me

The night sky makes me feel so free

Sleeping during the day

Awake during the night

Nocturnal is what i am, i cannot deny

Tried to fight it

Tried to fix it

But here we are, there is no listening

Goodness gracious, here we are again

Its just like i cant get out my head

Darkness comes and takes me whole at night

Oh my

Oh my

Insomnias got my mind

All night

All night

Insomnia

Has got a hold of my mind

@nocturnalxo

Sometimes

Sometimes

Sometimes i wish you never put hands on me

Sometimes i wish we were really meant to be

Sometimes i wish things went another way

Instead of the way it led us to today

Sometimes i dont care and im fine

Other times the PTSD blows my mind

Sometimes im good and i feel free

Other times i feel locked in the chamber of my reality

Sometimes i hate you and i know thats how its supposed to be

But the hate eats me alive its a never ending cycle of grief

Sometimes i want to betray myself and go back

Until i snap out of the desperation that i have packed

Most times i dont think about you

Most times i know that you were just another fool

Most times i know that its self harm to think about a time when you and me were warm

@nocturnalxo

From Time

I dont know why it weighs on me heavy

Time has passed but i still feel so sweaty

When i think about you

When i think about us

I dont know about you

But i wish there was still an “us”

Deep down

Reconciliation passes through my mind like a halt at a bus stop

i know that our chapter is locked and sealed

Thrown In the past and covered with dirt and grass

But how come when i think of you my heart starts to peel

The core starts to shine

Are you sure you dont think of me from time to time?

If not then fine

I get it i cant be the one with every guy

But you

You left your mark

As the years past i dont think ill ever forget the spark

I want to let this go badly

But my heart says to look back ever so fondly

Its not healthy

So im ending this toxic fantasy

And with doing that

Hopefully i step back into reality

-nocturnalxo

Incognito

‪What looked so sweet at first glace ‬
‪Tasted so sour after time passed ‬
‪I guess thats why you shouldnt judge a book by its cover Deceived by the green appearance of her ‬
‪The tears that formed left me warned ‬
‪To not take another bite ‬
‪Expecting something sweet ‬
‪But something bitter ended up as the surprise. ‬-nocturnalxo

Tupac Amaru Shakur

Since a child i’ve looked up to you

your essence of charisma is what made me fall in love too

Although taboo and a little out of the ordinary

Your songs would help guide me, it is still something very extraordinary

Your words would show me to much wisdom at such a young age

You inspired me to be more than just one page

You was a deep complex dude

I could relate so much to you

Just a kind of vibe only you can provide

And i feel your heart because it feels just like mine

Although i wish you could be here

i understand that this place caused you way too many tears

So i say hello from the other side

I know you with afeni going on your joyride

To thugz mansion the place that you reside

doing your job as an angel

Just know every time i pray i say your name

Because you helped mold me

And forever in the highest regards

Thats how i will hold thee

@nocturnalxo

Like a Cat

Nocturnal like a cat

Im fertile with my raps

A turtle is how i move

Slow and steady with the groove

Still i know that i cant take too long

Life waits for nobody

Same old song

But opportunity knocks on my door

I just have to stack up at the book store

Study study study

Seems lame when you’re young until you get hungry

And then its the only direction

Dont put all your eggs in one basket

Especially if you cant handle rejection

Life gets deep but i can go deeper

You wont see until you get put in that sleeper

@nocturnalxo

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