I

I love myself enough

To know when enough is enough

I love myself so much

That i cant deal with the same old tired stuff

I love myself enough to know

That i am worth much more than heartbreak and scorn

I love myself enough to leave situations that always end up leaving me torn

I love myself so much so i am my number 1 pick

Im on the top of my list and nothing you say can stop this

I love myself enough to stay on my grind

And pick myself up and dust myself off time after time

I love myself so much, i really am a divine.

@nocturnalxo

Different Cell

Same trials, different cell

Same struggle, different hell

Same heart, different wells

Karma comes and gets it still

Protect the hearts who beat through the stain

And smile through the pain

Living life insane but its normal in the rain

@nocturnalxo

Problem Child

Just take another pill

Shit I feel like you will

Cus the way that last one left you really didn’t fill any pain you don’t want to feel

I don’t know how it got to this

Recreational pleasures turned to taking it regardless of the deadly consequence

And trust me I haven’t even lost my senses

Not yet atleast because at the pace I’m going ima just give it about 2 weeks.

Tears in my eyes I’m so confused inside

What does this life mean? What is it supposed to be?

The game of life to me seems like torture

A hell created specifically for us

Don’t say I didn’t warn ya.

I Had my first real heart break at 5

15 years later it’s feels hard to be alive

Not because of that, it happens to many

But because of the cards I’ve been dealt with

I feel like I’ve suffered plenty

And so the pain, it has layers.

Because I’ve covered it up with bandaids and left it to be cleaned up for later

How can I cope? Pick up some dope

How can I feel good inside ? Pick up those pills and fly

How can I go numb? succumb to the Henny and come

To the land of Euphoria

That’s the story for ya

Dark Twisted & Sick.

I’ll never say it aloud but that’s the road I’m headed in

LOVE

I don’t want a love that i have to fight for

I don’t want a love that makes me feel unworthy or makes me deal with gaslight nor

Do I want a love that contradicts who i am

Don’t want to question myself over any man

Don’t need a love that makes me go insane or question my brain

I want a love that makes me love myself more

Makes me see all that i bring to the door

A love that only validates my true power

One that helps me grow into a beautiful flower

In all reality i want a love that is unconditional

Something i can give to myself as it wont be minimal

A love called self

A love that will never put me on the bottom shelf

A love everlasting

A love that does not need any form of fasting

A love which is true

The best love you can give yourself is loving you

@nocturnalxo

 

All That I Need

I’m really all that i need

Its truly beautiful that i finally see

It took me long enough to genuinely believe

That all the beauty i see in you i can also see in me

I’m really all that i need

Of course loneliness is something that still happens to me

I tap in and see how harmonious i am alone as i continue to grow

Because without my self love than i am truly alone

The potential that i have goes on for centuries

Once i set that potential in motion my success will run as deep as the pacific ocean

And when i focus on the positive i let go all of my miseries

When i legitimately dive in deep

I see how i thrive when i believe in me

So believe in you

Because true love develops when you grow the seed of truth

That once we initiate that unconditional love within

There is nothing holding us back to win

@nocturnalxo

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