Vulnerable

I stay vulnerable

And its noticeable

I Wear my heart on my sleeve

Have my laundry in the streets

Dirty it seems

Give it up for peace

Since it seems to decrease

The never ending shame that used to eat me

So here i am

Transparent as ever and

I wouldnt want it any other way

Because this is my spirit

It came to lift weights

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Incognito

‪What looked so sweet at first glace ‬
‪Tasted so sour after time passed ‬
‪I guess thats why you shouldnt judge a book by its cover Deceived by the green appearance of her ‬
‪The tears that formed left me warned ‬
‪To not take another bite ‬
‪Expecting something sweet ‬
‪But something bitter ended up as the surprise. ‬-nocturnalxo

Shallow

When the pool of water doesn’t reach certain depths

We aren’t able to get deep it works like that in life

Shallow streams that play make believe

Illusions of depth makes you drown in dreams

Wave after wave

Graves that we’ve paved

Conclaves that just sway

In the deepest part of the ocean

Where my darkness is buried with my emotions

where the truth is always spoken

And the motion of the ocean leaves no commotion

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Psychosis

Head pounding

Heart racing

It feels like

This isnt real.

Shadows dancing

Voices making me feel like i’ve made a deal

Like the air has been laced

And my hand is to my heart

im feeling the bass

Its Beating like drums that wont stop

Dissociation has taken over again and this time it brought locks

Am i dreaming? Did you hear that?

I dont know anymore, i just want my head back.

-@nocturnal

Daydream

Daydream

it seems to me im lost in this life scheme

Ive taken it to the extreme

In the everyday mundane

Day dream

life never ends up how it may seem

like how it ends in the movies

Its all part of the game

Trial after trial but my daydream consists of fairytales and bridals

Rainbows and flowers

Beautiful moments that last for hours

Daydream

Life isnt always what it may seem

And i tend to get lost in what it could be

But the reality brings pain

Daydream

To manifest perhaps some good things

Would be a song that the birds sing

On a beautiful day

@nocturnalxo

ScapeGOAT

Don’t worry about me

Worry about you

I been sleeping good but its the guilt that left me shook

As if i influenced everyone around me

I doubt it so don’t you dare doubt me

As if I’m the evil…

As if I’m the person who been primeval..?

As if i havent been on a mission of retrieval.

I guess nobody knows unless you change the tone,

And open that mouth to let it be known what you told

But im not the type to ask for credit

And maybe thats where im wrong because people do forget it

Not only that but people rewrite history in their own minds

Im not a perfect human i been there back in time

And if we didn’t have textbooks who would be able to tell this fake time?

But the truth is its all in my head

And i suffer from certain things that are better left unsaid

They told me im an open book

I said if you only knew everything that it took,

it truly would leave you shook.

They told me i belong in a hospital

I told then these tears taste sweet as sweet as the sunday gospel

They told me id never make it

Well i still aint there yet but Lord knows i aint shaken

They told me im too weird

I told them take this free homily and soon after they appeared

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Used To Be

This used to be my time

Nocturnal rhymes

Used to be the vibe

Used to be until i found out it was killin me

Used to be until i found out what was encrypted in me

Used to be

Till i saw the magic formed against me

Used to be

But now i know that this is destiny

Now i know that this is meant to be

Used to be, until i understood divine testimony

Used to be, when i didn’t really understand me

Used to be, but now i do believe in me.

Used to be, but now i dont need thee

Post to be, everything i ever dreamed of

Post to be, i believe in God and me

Post to be, love and divinity

Post to be, understanding the faults in me

Always be learning and growing C.

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Loyalty

I’m loyal to the soil

Even when it hurts

But now I know I’m gonna put myself first

Sometimes people do

Come and go

But some you won’t forget so it’s hard to let go

With that being said

The disconnect happens when the loyalty is not to ourselves

So we end up putting our own hearts on dusty shelves

Loyalty

It starts in the mirror

As you look into your own eyes and get lost in the beautiful figure

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