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Mama Patria

my second mother

my right when I’m wrong

my good conscious because yours was so strong

so much of me i got from you

because you were just another mother to me too

Raising me like you raised your own

because that was just you

That motherly feeling ran in your bones

i lived with you since i was 5 years old

and wow i saw why every one loves your soul

Kind, considerate, and just plain ole good

the best role model cus we all wish we could

Live up to who you were and who you still are

Because energy never dies and you’ve been a star

I remember exactly how i felt when it sunk in

That you were really my grandma

you were really my kin

The feeling of pride, i cannot deny because

i felt so lucky to be growing up with someone like you by my side

A perfect example of how it doesn’t matter what you do career wise

but how you treat people makes the difference when it’s time to say goodbye

Because we are all just so sad

Even though it was 93 years,

thats the touch you had

Im not sure if you knew just how much i loved you

but i wont be sad anymore i’ll do that for you

I’ll do it for us

just know you can trust.

I won’t let you down

Here and then when i think of you i might wear a frown

Only because i miss you and i wish we had more time

i wish you could have heard me rhyme

But that’s alright and its okay

Im sorry for the days i didn’t obey

The presence might seem gone but i know

life is more then what meets the eyes

you probably sitting in the back of this place

With a smile on your face and the crown worn sideways

Cus you was cool like that

Thats how i will remember you

As a Mother Theresa type of cool cat

So rest now because this earth was never your home

too pure to be in this kind of zone

Ill never stop missing you, that is for sure

but i know you’ll never be too far away as long as we are here

And i thank you for being our new angel

Ill try my best to bear

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Shooting Stars Prologue

The stars sure did look bright that night. I don’t think I ever really came to the roof and just started stargazing until that night. I saw Vanessa put the bottle down in between us and lay her head on her purple pillow.

“What a view.” She muttered with a smile on her face. I moved my head to try and get real cozy.

“What if we see a shooting star?” I asked her with a grin.

“How cool would that be? I’d wish for money.” My primadonna best friend proclaims proudly. I chuckle and hesitate before sharing what I would wish for.

“Well, what about you?” Vanessa turns to me with one of her eyebrows raised

“Well.” I mockingly repeated. After I saw her gaze fixated on me I knew that she really wanted to know.

“Er, If I tell you it may not come true!” I crossed my arms and pretend like I’m really not going to tell her, knowing me, it was bound to come out.

“Oh come on, it will come true! don’t be like that.” Her puppy eyes came out as I rolled my eyes.

“I’d wish for love.” I say quietly, Vanessa does a double-take and this time she was the one rolling her eyes.

“You’re so cheesy Lei, That was real corny.” Vanessa took out the Doritos and begins munching.

“While that is true, it doesn’t matter anyway because as you can see” I pointed to the sky     “No shooting stars.”

As if a higher power was listening, seconds later the same location in the sky that I pointed to and we were both looking at was engulfed in shooting stars. Not just one but dozens of them. We turn to each other with our eyes widened, both in disbelief.

“Woah, Are we tripping?” Vanessa exclaims shock heard all over her voice.

“Not this time.” I manage to say as fast as the shooting stars came they went

“Did you even wish for anything?” I turn to her and see her eyes still glued to the night sky.

“Girl, we already made our wishes! That was crazy though.” She finally turns to look at me with a Goofy grin “I’m going to be rich!” She gets up and starts dancing. I can’t help but laugh.

“You really think so?” I ask her unconvinced “I mean I know shooting stars symbolize wishing and having your wishes come true but, you really think it will?” Vanessa stops dancing and looks me dead in my eye.

“Lei, you have to believe.”

That night was one of the most special nights of my life. It changed the trajectory of my life and of Vanessa’s life. There was magic in the air and we were blessed enough to gain from it. After we saw the shooting stars I poured my glass and her glass of wine and we toasted to the stars and the wishes. Not really knowing what would come next. We both had 10 AM classes the next morning at different universities so we called it a night early. The next day is when the magic would really come to life.

 

 

TO BE CONTINUED…

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